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9:30:00 PM
Monday, August 29, 2005
Oh Shoot
Went to UP Diliman for the first shooting day of "Oh Shit." As a self-described "PDA" - Production Designer/Assistant - I provided the props and carried them around all day. Nothing much, just some scripts, tissue, and a very heavy "inflator" for bike tires and basketballs. ;j
The crew and I went building-hopping, isaw-eating, ice cream-dripping, and balloon-inflating, but my favorite moment was the Alcogel-sweat-dripping scene. HAHAHA..Hilarious! I can't wait to make the chocolate/meatball poop! Hehehe.
Thanks to Myn (PD), Vinci (cinematographer/director), James (the star), and Bono (dropped by) for taking part in my first "real" moviemaking experience. I loved the camera, by the way. Very "high tech." (This time, the term actually applies, Sab. ;j)
Apart from my PD duties, I went to the shoot today in order to gather enough experience to be prepared for the "Anino" shoot, which I hope will go smoothly. We're shooting in a couple of weeks, so I guess hanging around shootings and soaking up the "film atmosphere" will make me more comfortable once we get started on "Anino."
Just a thought: I realize that talking about this, as well as using film jargon, doesn't make me an expert on the subject. I'm all about gaining experience, so pardon me if I my wide eyes don't quit dilating anytime soon. In spite of the insistent emission of kupal waves from someone I don't want to name, I'm trying to be optimistic for "Anino," as well as the rest of my LFC life. *holds head and cries, "Aray!"*
Once again, Go DOC & PUB!!!
Insert: Congratulations to JOKETIME for playing their biggest gig so far last Friday! Warm up pa lang 'yan for this Friday! *wink wink*
My Muffliato:
Music from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Trailer!!!
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9:32:00 PM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Exciting, exciting
WE'RE MAKING A MOVIE!!!
4 short films, to be exact. I'm going to be doing some hands-on work on 2 of those films... so I guess that's why...
| My Mood Ring is Red |
Excited
Energized
Adventurous
Ready to go |
Excited? You bet! I didn't work hard on the script of "Anino" to see it go to waste! Bring it on!
Energized? Yeah!
Adventurous? Pwede! Let's do this thing!
Ready to go? Actually, tinatamad ako right now. But yeah, I'll get ready! Haha. ;j
Go DOC & PUB!!!
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11:46:00 PM
Today I felt that long-dormant feeling stirring in my chest. It woke up with a sharp pang that almost killed me in surprise.
Today, I felt "kilig" again.
Granted, it wasn't real kilig, because it wasn't because of a person or anything that happened to me. Haha. Fat chance of me writing something like that here. No, it wasn't about anybody at all. I was just reading some fan fic (again, it's all your fault, Mara, Sab, and Cat!) about Draco and Hermione *guilty pleasure, sorry*, and boom! Then came that thing that squeezed my heart so much that my eyes watered with tears. It's a wonder I didn't break down again. (see previous post.hehe)
After that, I decided to watch an old asianovela favorite (sorry, another guilty pleasure here. Haha!). And there it was again! Ouch!
I'm telling you, it has been a looong time since I felt real kilig. Not just the painful pinch from watching romance flicks, the small cardiac jump when a cute guy is nearby, or the twitches when the cute guy actually talks to you - believe me, I should know the difference. I'm the girl whose heart skips at almost any cute guy. If you're a guy, chances are I've had a "crush" (don't worry, crush here just refers to that stupid heart jumping thing) on you at one point in my life. Don't take it seriously, though; my nerves are just plain weird and wired differently.
I'm talking about real kilig. It's something different: that cold, restless feeling of something actually happening. It feels like my heart's not only jumping, skipping, or twitching...it's actually feeling.
BUT WAIT! Does the fact that I'm talking about this mean that I want to feel it again?
Let me think.
Uhm..that would be a big, fat, NO!
It's exciting to rock the boat, but ultimately, cleaning up after seasickness just isn't worth it.
So I guess I'll stay here on the shore and watch the sailboats go by.
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10:32:00 PM
Thursday, August 25, 2005
A List Worth Mentioning
I was watching the 2-hour season finale of Lost, which contained some very powerful scenes of everyone boarding the plane before the whole crash ever happened. And somehow, when I saw an indifferent Boone handing his sister Maggie her missing tube of lipstick, I just broke down. I bawled my eyes out. I don't know why.
Maybe it's because I have so many things to say, but I can't. Let me give it a shot with this LIST:
1. I love Calvin and Hobbes!!! "I like to set kites free." He's one of the cutest kids ever. (But Naruto still holds a special place in my heart as THE cutest kid ever. Hehehe.)
2. Peque Gallaga just about summed up the reason why I can't seem to find just one answer when asked about "my favorite movie."
Here's what he said:
"Movies are like children. You can't have any favorites. You just say, 'Ikaw, magaling sa..' at 'Ikaw, maganda ang..'"
- Peque Gallaga, director. *clap clap* for this beautiful and wonderfully true statement.
3. My Fuji Finepix Camera wants to grow up to be a Canon Ixus, a Miniket, a Sony Cybershot, and a high quality digital video camera someday! That's right, keep on dreaming! Ambisyoso talaga ang digicam na 'to.
4. I prioritized watching Camiling Story at the CCP during the Cinemalaya Filmfest over going to an Ateneo UAAP volleyball game for my Guidon application. Thus, I never got to submit any articles. My application was wasted.
But the deeper meaning here, my friends, (yes, there is always a deeper meaning) is that I chose films over sports.
Tanga! Tamad! I could have had both. As Sab and I like to put it, I'm "the one that got away" from the Guidon Sports Staff. HAHAHA ANG YABANG. =p Pero sayang talaga. Tsk.
5. I just want you to know, wherever you are now, and whoever you have become...and even though I have absolutely no idea if this will ever reach you:
Whatever happened to the friendship?
6. Thank you to the Amigas of A2 for all the hilarious "moments" that I could only have experienced with you guys! That football moment will always be special. *insane with laughter*
7. I love FREDDIE HIGHMORE! *cuuuuuuute* I want someone like him. Sparkly eyes, bright smile, unassuming demeanor and all. *sigh*
8. I hate that I have to censor what I say here - including indicating the music that I listen to - because of some reaction formator who has no originality. I hate this.
9. I miss my NSTP kids. John Ray and Raymark, I still think of you all the time. *hikbi*
10. I have discovered the crazy world of Fan Fiction. Thanks to Mara, Sab, and Cat for turning me into such a Draco-Hermione addict..hehe.
11. I'm on a diet - from sweets, fats, crushes, and all those other things that are bad for my health. Hehehe. I will win this one. I know it.
12. I'm all for G.A.D. --> GIRLS AGAINST DOTA. &*@#*&$(@#& that game and all the losers who worship it. Hindi na kayo tao dahil sa ginagawa niyo.
13. Thanks to my blockmate Scott for introducing the whole block to another Japanese gory film. It was f-r-e-a-k-y, but in the best way. Okay, let me go on before I remember the film and start vomiting. Haha..
14. Hello Tiangkikoy! And OchoUno, of course. Karla, Enya, Mia, Be, Bogs, Pam, Pola, Aix, Riva, Mellow, and all my old friends...I cherish our memories and moments together. And to the person I mentioned in #5, I say this even to you. I really do.
And since I keep mentioning "moments," let me just end this with a prayer:
15. Dear God,
I love MOMENTS. I really do. Thank you, Loving Father, for all the moments that you spring on me, even though I always look my worst when they happen. (Haha) I guess that's part of what makes a moment great. I am grateful for those flashes of Your supreme humor and brilliance, the likes of which can only come from Your divine plan. I am happy, Lord, for I know that You also grant me the gift of longer stretches of happiness after such moments. Thanks, Almighty God, the Great Master of Surprises and Moments.
Amen.
Aaah, moments. HARHARHAR.
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11:10:00 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Ayoko
Ayoko. Ayoko. Ayoko. Ayoko talaga.
I am stronger than my amygdala.
Darn. Feelings are always stirred up in August.
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11:09:00 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
Two Sides of the Story
Thinking about love is always exhausting. For those who, like me, cautiously approach this topic with reason and logic, here's a glimpse of each of the two sides of the story:
"meeting, flirting, learning to love, fighting, crying, recovering---i'm sick of these. i'm not sure i'd want to go through all these once again someday. the people who have said that is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all are only fooling themselves just so they'd feel better. now, i'm starting to believe people who have been ignorant of love are happier."
- a friend, whose heart may be so broken that she has turned over the master controls to her brain.
I would like to think that I'm ignorant of romantic love. And in my case, perhaps ignorance has been bliss. So could my friend be on to something? Mary Oliver, a poet, may have something else to say about the matter:
"...There is life without love. It is not worth a bent
penny, or a scuffed shoe. It is not worth the body of a
dead dog nine days unburied."
- "West Wind #2"
Grabe, love. Haay. Ewan..maybe we're better off with this line from Syrus:
"Cum ames non sapias aut cum sapias non ames."
(When you are in love you are not wise, or rather, when you are wise you don't fall in love.)
In the meantime, this is for my friend:
"Amori finem tempus, non animus facit."
(It is time, not the mind, that puts an end to love.)
- Syrus
Hope you feel better. I'll pray for you.
Currently playing:
A Stormy Night - Pedicab
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4:12:00 PM
The Beba blogging hiatus has officially been interrupted by these shoes:
I shall have these sneakers. I know it.
Walang kokontra. Walang gagaya.
Conv.erse Roll Down/Fold Over High: blue/banana, and green/pink.
And let's not forget what I have dubbed "The BEBA shoe:"
Conv.erse two-tone black and sunshine yellow.
Granted, they look like a pair of taxi cabs, but still...they're sooo me!
Yellow and black. You can't go wrong with yellow and black and Beba. Haha. I'm starting to sound like a psycho, which I probably am, given that I don't have a single cent to pay for these babies.
Meanwhile, as I try to console myself for not having taxi cabs for shoes, I'm nursing other obsessions: Sorry, I already DELETED that part.
Maybe when I have those sunshine yellow taxicabs on my feet, I'll walk taller and prouder. Haha. (Gee, what an attempt at unity and coherence. :p)
My Muffliato:
"It was a big mistake to let me..."
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2:57:00 PM
